29 July 2010

what's more important

Say hi to http://junjyon.blogspot.com/
Cheer*!!

There will be a day when you ask me what's more important, my life or you, I will say my life, you will turn around and walk away not knowing that you are my life =p


quota to share :
"Find out who you are, and do it on purpose"


a brand new benny
JunjyOn

心情写真
29/07/2010
1.00pm
“迷恋文字是 为了提醒自己做个有心有情的过客,在花飞叶落的彼岸之间,
让我们张开文字的雨幕,涂 抹下或华 丽,或诡魅,或冰莹的色彩...”

28 July 2010

Let go lead to emptiness.

Say bye to http://bennychai.blogspot.com/
Cheer*!!

Link changed because i do really need some privacy...and mostly is because I'm try letting go something. Although Letting go lead to emptiness, but I clear about what i WANT and what i NEED. There is a say "the more it closer to you, the more you want to hold it."
yes, i need to go.

Just sometime...we need to step out from the circle, to temporarily remove ourselves from the execrable situation so that we could calm down and take a deep breath.


quota to share :
man does not live by bread and butter alone

Don't ever tie yourself, we deserved more. Just step out from the circle....and smile *appreciate.




心情写真
28/07/2010
9.14pm
“迷恋文字是 为了提醒自己做个有心有情的过客,在花飞叶落的彼岸之间,
让我们张开文字的雨幕,涂 抹下或华 丽,或诡魅,或冰莹的色彩...”

23 July 2010

不可更改的宿命

差一点就忘了,故事的开始是我被感动了


我爱着的是从前为我疯狂的那一个她,想念着的那一个是从前狂恋着我的她。

她给过的什么承诺现在已不再重要了,那些以前说着永不分离的人,早已经散落在天涯了,那一个的她已经不存在了。看着我们的合照,原来我们有很多回忆,但一切已经离得很远很远了。算一算今天已是第236个夜晚,还有什么可以放不下,且没有人会再珍惜,因为她不再在乎自己了,反而会觉得自己很烦很烦.........还有很烦。


我没有那么伟大告诉自己会等谁,因为咱们都不再是谁的谁。剪不断理还乱,我没后悔爱上她,更没有后悔选择与她分开,因为她早就已经不是自己的那一个她,挂念的仅仅是“她”。当时的离去,是为了让事情变得简单化,让一切可以重新开始,可是为什么现在还要念念不忘呢,既然做了这个决定就必须坚强的走下去。这一夜又是一个孤单沉默的夜晚,不同的是我不再觉得寂寞,因为再也想不到什么原因不让自己开心,更想不到什么原因要身边的人陪我一起忧伤。


遗忘,是我们不可更改的宿命,所有的一切都像是没有对齐的图纸从前的切回不到过去,就这样慢慢延伸,一点一点的错开来;也许,错开了的东西,我们真的应该遗忘了。回忆本来就是有开心不开心的,不需要再去想为什么自己会不开心。没有人可以完美诠释回忆的本质,是幸福还是痛苦,可是原因对我已经不再重要了。幸福是自己诠释的。





记忆想是倒在掌心的水,不论你摊开还是紧握,
终究还是会从指缝中一滴一滴流淌干净。我想她,不是喜欢她。

心情写真
23/07/2010
3.52am
“迷恋文字是 为了提醒自己做个有心有情的过客,在花飞叶落的彼岸之间,
让我们张开文字的雨幕,涂 抹下或华 丽,或诡魅,或冰莹的色彩...”

21 July 2010

是你忘了带我走

突然觉得自己很健忘,很多事情想记起来却怎么也记不起来。也许你很想远离我,可是越是越远就越让我想念你,或许有些孤单,但至少有淡淡的回忆陪伴着我。

很多时候都不会有一个明确的答案,可是答案真的那么重要嘛?因为不想彼此伤害之所以保持沉默,因为模糊之所以隐瞒,因为连自己也不知道想怎样之所以原地踏步.....

要知道一个人身边的位置只有那麽多,你能给的也只有那麽多,在这个狭小的圈子里,有些人要进来,就有一些人不得不离开。时间没带走一切,只告诉说我不再需要身边的某个位置了。



既然我不相信有童话,那又何必再去创造新的历史。


或许早已失去爱一个人的能力,因为很累,所以情愿放弃那幸福,也不要爱过之后去体会那痛苦。时间没有等我,是你忘了带我走




心情写真
22/07/2010
9.21am
“迷恋文字是 为了提醒自己做个有心有情的过客,在花飞叶落的彼岸之间,
让我们张开文字的雨幕,涂 抹下或华 丽,或诡魅,或冰莹的色彩...”

19 July 2010

240808 ♥ memories


当真正动容感触的时候就会发现,语言原来是多么的脆弱和无力。文字与感觉永远有着隔阂。回忆就是那么玄的一样东西。我不爱她了,可是回忆却。。。有些人,你会一直刻在记忆里最深处的地方,即使忘记了她的声音,忘记了她的笑容,忘记了几乎她所有的一切,但是每当想起她时的那种感受却依旧没曾改变。有句话说,你永远也不会见到我最寂寞时候的样子,因为只有你不在我身边的时候我才最寂寞。没有牵着你手的日子里,乱了的思念总在夜深人静的夜里被勾起。在自己的世界里我们都是国王,任意纵横跋扈,你不要听我的,但你也不要让我听你的。也许没有开始就不会破坏美好、就不会留下遗憾。假设一切再从来我还该选择爱上你吗?当回忆象钢铁般坚硬我是该微笑还是?




19/07/2010
5.00 am
“迷恋文字是 为了提醒自己做个有心有情的过客,在花飞叶落的彼岸之间,
让我们张开文字的雨幕, 涂 抹下或华 丽,或诡魅,或冰莹的色彩...”

18 July 2010

After the day of 231

I keep seeking for more opinion so i can lift up my spirits and give myself hope. For the fear and obligation, i am just afraid that i wont be ready to date again, but i guess i wont know until i try it. But there is a question, how do i accept or start something new in my life when i haven't been able to stay confidence? Coursework..test..homework..is killing me and honestly i did not have that much of time for others thing else. I put my studies as priority and i knew it will never wrong.

Obviously everyone misses their ex. After the day of 231, am i truly miss her or do i just simply have a fear of being lonely? well, i used to be a person and practiced to be alone for this seven months. I understand there is no any chance getting back together but i never regret for what i have chosen, in fact i just simply miss you. There is a saying "Accept that your loss may always hurt or confuse you" yes, it’s important to put the past behind and move on, and as the quotes by Helen Keller that i always say, “Keep your face to the sunshine and you will never see the shadow.” It's so true.

I try to remain positive in every situation while sometime i really felt helpless. I just an ordinary person, and many times i just want to affirm what i want...



心情写真
18/07/2010
3.44 am
“迷恋文字是 为了提醒自己做个有心有情的过客,在花飞叶落的彼岸之间,
让我们张开文字的雨幕,涂 抹下或华 丽,或诡魅,或冰莹的色彩...”




15 July 2010

有些女生不懂

女生不懂,当女生在为男生不打电话生气时,男生可能在干着又苦又累的工作。。。
女生不懂,当 男生为女生披上他自己的衣服是,他也是如坠冰窖。。。
女 生不懂,当女生一句话让男生沉默的时候,男生不是生气,而是 深深的受伤。。。
女生不懂,当看到男生快乐时,不是男生没有痛苦,而是全部埋在心底。。。
女生不懂,当女生为男生付出的时候,男生不是看不见,而是不善于表达。。。
女生不懂,当男生挑剔女生不好的时候,在别人面前却夸的如天仙一般。。。
女生不懂,当男生转身的时候,女生看不到男生眼底的悲伤和心理的泪和血。。。
女生不懂,当男生失意的时候,永远是孤独的喝着酒。。。
女 生不懂,当男生在坚强的外表下,有时候是一颗异常脆弱的 心。。。
女生不懂,当男生悲伤的时候,永远不会骂女生,是因为男生还深深的爱着她。。。
女生不懂,当女生痛苦的时候,男生的心痛永远不会比女 生少。。。
女生不懂,当男生离开的时 候,并不代表他不爱她,而是不想浪费她的青春和感情。。。
女 生不懂,当男生选择成为过客的时候,男生的心中永远刻着女生 的名字。。。
女生不懂,当男生装傻的时候,不是忘记,而是在想如何给女生 一个惊喜。。。
女生不懂,当男生生气的时候,不是因为不能承受女生的无理取闹,而是因为被女生的话深深地伤害。。。
如果一个男生真的爱一个女生, 他的许多都是女生不懂得,男生对女生的尊重和爱 也不会比女生付出的少,因为男生承受的东西本就 很多,男生的心不会比女生坚强,因为女生可以发 泄,而男生却只能压在心底。。。很多时候不要太责怪一 个男生。。。因为他爱的同样甚至更深。。只不过被深深的藏 起。。。




 

The night of disappointed

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop. There is no a word called "fair" in the world of love, so need not to care about these. There is a saying, Pain Because You Gain, the most wonderful true love. Time i spend with you was one of the most beautiful moment in my life. Some people will say I'm a fool, i don't know how to cherish and appreciate, and i was thinking about it in this whole lonely night. The night of disappointed had brought me a lot of thoughts and feelings. Carson was true. The more expectation, the more disappointment. Just please let me know, what should i do now?

心情写真
15/07/2010
2.15 am
“迷恋文字是 为了提醒自己做个有心有情的过客,在花飞叶落的彼岸之间,
让我们张开文字的雨幕,涂 抹下或华 丽,或诡魅,或冰莹的色彩...”

07 July 2010

回忆,让人更幸福 ,还是更痛苦

人生经历中的一起一落的波折,有欢乐,有悲伤,有甜蜜,有痛苦……过去的不会再成为现实,只可以回想,故名:回忆。


杯里的咖啡就像回忆,苦中有甜
,既有苦涩也有它的醇香,但却总是麻醉不了这一夜的沉静 ;飞扬洒脱的音乐使某些感触更生动,使某些记忆更深刻。微笑让我看见了下一步,让我更加的坚定。今天拿到了对垒MMU的辩题:《回忆,让人更幸福 ,还是更痛苦》。辩题回忆,似乎是我这屋檐下的小孩部落格写照,因为我喜欢回忆,喜欢细细品尝过去,喜欢独处苦思陶醉浪漫情歌写作。然而回忆带给我的是什么?


回忆,它留给你一点怀念,留给你一点念想,更留给你一点甜蜜,想不让你痛苦。回忆是个很玄的东西...看不见摸不着,却在脑海里不断的在想、不断的在涌现。你曾那么真实的出现在我的世界里,现在却只像一场梦活在我的记忆里...这究竟是幸福 ,还是痛苦呢?我努力让这一切都趋于平淡,如今它们已经是需要用鲜活记忆来唤醒的回忆。但这一份回忆只是属于我自己的、是独一无二,没法与他人分享的,所以我应该觉到快乐。如果说回忆不是痛苦的根源,那么什么人才是痛苦,就是那一些没有回忆的人,因为没有了回忆人生就是是苍白的。

但如果就因这一些回忆是我们独有的,就论定是幸福的话,是不是就算这情况有多糟我们都一样幸福呢?这其实几乎是说不过去的。我们常要把回忆给忘了,又是什么原因呢,是不是因为他让我们更痛苦呢?想把回忆给忘了,其实很难。回忆似水,忘记如刃,我们何时见过刃可将水阻挡?只有抽刀断水水更流,就算有那么一把刀突兀地立在心间,也会渐渐被时间磨钝。





倘若回忆是真的让人更痛苦,那么为什么我们还愿意一遍又一遍不断回味,甚至永远收藏。那是因为人们都喜欢在痛苦中去找寻快乐和甜蜜,哪怕是在99%的痛苦之余有1%的快乐和甜蜜,人们也喜欢去回味它。更重要的是,回忆有着现在触碰不到的东西,就算悲凉、孤单、伤感、再痛,那也是值得的。故名:回忆




心情写真
07/07/2010
6.43 am
“迷恋文字是 为了提醒自己做个有心有情的过客,在花飞叶落的彼岸之间,
让我们张开文字的雨幕,涂 抹下或华 丽,或诡魅,或冰莹的色彩...”

06 July 2010

Appreciate, but never lie

It is always a strong sense of form in out mind-ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us. We always considered the most precious is the one we lost, but we forget about the most true one is the one who never leave.






心情写真
6/07/2010
3.24am
“迷恋文字是 为了提醒自己做个有心有情的过客,在花飞叶落的彼岸之间,
让我们张开文字的雨幕,涂 抹下或华 丽,或诡魅,或冰莹的色彩...”

01 July 2010

I'm Quit

I've to say, you are really a wonderful person, you always have the ability to make me laugh, you touched my soul, you just great and I know the good Lord is gonna do greater things through the rest of your life, please forgive me for being selfish, but i have to give up. The feelings of failure and looking back at my pass is struggling myself when I'm locked up inside myself, which you will never know. For the fear, obligation, and mostly was the guilt in my heart was giving up myself. I knew it's hurts, and i also knew that i'll never have to give up because you're always here, but i feel bad. As time go on, i should learn how to manage loneliness, and suppose no longer helpless over myself. Helplessness was like loneliness, fell like death. I refute accepting my helplessness and continue to try to control everything rather than take responsibility intent to protect myself. I hope i could have strong enough internally to manage my loneliness and accept my helplessness to over come my fear to create a new relationship. I'm hunger for a love that will stay intimacy and secure, stressing on understanding and individuality. Just maybe things that happened around me for all the while, yet i'm convinced that most love relationship will wither or even die with time. And yes, this is the reason why I'm Quit.


心情写真
21/06/2010
2.51am
“迷恋文字是 为了提醒自己做个有心有情的过客,在花飞叶落的彼岸之间,
让我们张开文字的雨幕,涂抹下或华 丽,或诡魅,或冰莹的色彩...”